16. Resilient Reconstruction / Towering Vortex

Powerful, destructive, Natural Forces 
in the forms of disasters, accidents, loss, 
illness and trauma, re-focus our attention.
Threatening old, out-dated, conditioned, 
belief structures, they challenge us to 
dig deep, to rise up to the occasion.


Recovering after traumatic "Storms" 
in our lives, requires courage, stamina, 
compassion, time, and resourcefulness.
Focusing on immediate issues at hand, 
we walk, through the rubble, carefully 
one step at a time, praying gratitude. 

Locking eyes with the darkness of a 
 vast, terrifying, collective shadow,
at times can shake us to our knees.
Begging for mercy and the safety of 
loved ones, we search the horizon 
for any sign of the Star of Hope. 
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Exploring a career opportunity, 
at a Conference in Pacific Grove, 
the brakes went out in my truck.
Nearing an intersection, unable 
to stop, I heard my deceased  
Father say, "pump the breaks!" 

Without hesitation, I responded to 
his words and the vehicle came to 
a stop, preventing a fatal collision. 
I felt protected by Angels, coasting 
into my cousin's driveway to assess 
damage and call AAA for assistance.

 
All plans for the weekend, were put 
on hold, by an unexpected situation, 
involving forces beyond my control.
 Unable to reach emergency contacts,
feeling totally dis-connected and alone,
terror quickly welled up inside of me.

Taking a moment to regroup, I prayed
for strength to surrender to the process, 
and was graced by a Divine Presence. 
The grace of GOD, came to my rescue 
working as a Tow Truck Driver and a  
generous Spirit Sister at the conference. 

The man behind the counter at "Midas", 
where my truck was towed, also radiated 
the abundant light of an Angelic Being. 
Within an hour, I was back on the road, 
but as the Sun set, a Rainstorm hit, 
and I could not see the road signs.

After missing several exits, guided by 
my Father's voice again, I was turned 
in a correct North- Eastern direction. 
Any attempt to drive my vehicle home 
without fixing it, would have been fatal, 
yet the thought had crossed my mind. 
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I began to contemplate how many other 
times I put myself at risk to show up, 
be there and offer support to others. 
Through this question, I see a pattern, 
that has run its course in my life; one
resulting in me abandoning myself. 

Canceling a conditioned belief that, 
"I don't deserve to put myself first", 
I re-write the narrative of my story. 
Navigating heaps of disappointment, 
shattered expectations and denials, 
I re-organize, transforming my chaos. 

The resilience of my re-construction, 
allows me to move forward with new 
insight, renewed strength and diligence. 
" The gift of my New Brakes allows me to 
Stop, and change direction confidently, 
without relying on inertia and gravity. " 
(Wisdom from Elder Cousin)  
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My truck being towed to "Midas" is a 
metaphor attuned to King Midas, who 
desired to turn all he touched into Gold. 
(This left him alone without true intimacy.) 
Sometimes impulsively pursuing alluring 
golden fantasy of what we think we want, 
manifests challenging, unexpected results. 
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I pray gratitude for supportive family, 
and friends who helped me survive 
during a very difficult time of need. 
Eventually hearing their loving voices, 
grounded me enough to think clearly, 
reflect, create a new plan of action. 

I pray gratitude for Angelic Guidance, 
and the adventuring Spirit of my Father, 
whose wisdom was music to my Soul. 
Affected the gravitational impact of 
this situation, I am forever changed, 
and welcome time for re-integration. 

As a Spiritual Warrior, I realize 
alone-ness = all-one-ness with life. 
And so it is. Blessed Be. Amen

m/s.sage Friday, 11-19-10

Re-write, Monday, 11-1-15

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